It’s Hard to Be a God
Striving for Power and freedom, the Magus always seeks to transcend restraining systems that restrain him.
In other words, the Magus turns from a follower of others’ laws into a lawgiver, at least for himself. This means the Magus refuses to follow others’ rules and strives for self-determination on his path.
However, every law, besides its limiting and regulatory function, also has a protective function, and by stepping outside accepted behavioral patterns the Magus loses that support as well.
The most difficult thing here is that in choosing his direction of movement the Magus can no longer rely on “public opinion,” religion, or other authorities, and must seek support within himself.
The freedom the Magus strives for often proves to be the greatest obstacle to his progress because a great many Magi, even those who have achieved remarkable success in overcoming the influences of predators, fall into the traps of self-deception and false choices.
Magi often forget that even what is truly theirs developed under long and relentless pressure from predators, and therefore the whole being of a person is permeated by destructors.
And when making another choice on their path, Magi frequently make the wrong choice because honesty with oneself is one of the most obvious and, at the same time, hardest-to-attain qualities. For a person who relies on society, religion, egregores, and the like, the problem of choosing correctly is far less acute than it is for a Magus, since all those supports provide resources, advice, and guidance.
Alone with himself, the Magus must always take risks, and perhaps it is precisely self-deception, self-hypocrisy that is the principal problem on this path.
Consistency and adequacy of actions and inner sincerity must always be these qualities most carefully scrutinized by the mind, and any insincerity in them is especially destructive.
The question: “who am I and where am I going” must never lose its relevance for a Magus; he should begin every undertaking with it, and the answer to this question must be rechecked very carefully.
It is no accident that Christianity regards pride as the mother of all vices. Precisely by becoming “the ultimate truth,” the Magus’s mind, especially in the early stages of development (although this problem always remains), is prone to misjudging the situation and, accordingly, to make strategically mistaken choices.
History shows that the vast majority of Magi, and even entire organizations, failed and perished precisely because, because of inadequate self- or situational assessment of themselves or of the situation, wrong choices were made, and all successes, all development were lost.
Yet the only possible way to prevail remains the infinitely difficult path on the razor’s edge, on which faith in oneself does not turn into self-admiration, and attentiveness – into indecision.
I want to know everything all at once. It seems like just a bit more… I’ll learn, I’ll decide, and then I’ll rest. But after reflecting on this desire, you realize that behind this bit, many more will follow. You need to not rush. You need to stop and look around. And regarding ‘boundaries’… just today I understood that no matter how much I strive, I will have to live among people. I need to somehow fit in without merging and go with everyone, but separately.
Having memories of past incarnations is a very good help in cleansing the consciousness from the influence of Distractors. When the Path traveled is visible, it’s easier not to get lost on the Current segment.
Seeing the ‘path traveled’ is only half the battle. Much more important is to evaluate it correctly, to draw conclusions about what was right and what led to a dead end. And, it must be said, often in this evaluation lies a distractor, and erroneous evaluation not only doesn’t help but, on the contrary, drives one further into the swamp.
How simply it’s sometimes written, and how hard it is to act this way in reality.
Here I am sitting, reading and thinking: where to go now and what to do? The more answers I get to my questions, the more questions I have. Today I’ve reached a point where I just don’t know where to go and what to do. I am completely confused about the past and future. It’s dark around and heavy.
Hope, how difficult it is sometimes to just take and write your own so that it is easy to act this way in reality… but even more difficult to accept someone else’s and allow it to fully govern your reality… It’s time to stop fighting with yourself… and choose…
I probably didn’t express my thought clearly. Between understanding how it should be and how it actually turns out, there often seems to be a chasm, the overcoming of which takes days, and sometimes even years of effort. With just a snap of the fingers, or upon making such a decision, people do not become perfect, aware, or free.
Yes, you can’t change the usual way of acting ‘with a snap of the fingers’. But any Path begins with the first step. And that step can only be taken decisively and irrevocably, stepping into the unknown.
Who values the music of love, does not need to be loved, to be right, invincible, to go along the long path. Who values the music of love? Who is glad to run alongside with pride, does not need to be proud, and to love oneself, assessing with a sharp gaze. Who is glad to run alongside with pride? Who can wait for another for eternity, must become eternity, break oneself and scatter, sending the soul into infinity, who is ready to wait for someone for eternity? Who sees righteousness around, must spend some time in Hell, so that it settles back into the soul, who was an enemy in the past, and who was a friend? Who sees righteousness around? Who sees looks across time, to that I give both my sorrow and tears, and I throw roses at their feet, to those who remember their tribe, who sees looks across time?
That’s right. But it’s also about the fact that once you learn of the existence of Freedom and the Path to it, you won’t be able to stray from this path, no matter how difficult it may become… But everyone will receive according to their labors.
Exactly. Once you’ve tasted freedom, it’s impossible to give it up. And you cannot deviate from the path that leads to it, no matter how much you might want to…
I will share with you what I found in the books of the greatest, in my opinion, sage of antiquity – Lucius Annaeus Seneca. Was he not a magician or someone who followed the Path? ‘Follow the impulse of the soul, which led you past common goods to the highest good. Become who you intended to become, no more and no less, for when laying the foundation, you did not stifle it. Complete what you have begun, put into action all that you have in your soul. Ultimately, you will become wise if you stop your ears against the insidious voice promising pleasure and peace. Be deaf even to those whom you hold dearest: they, with the best intentions, wish you harm. And if you wish to be happy, pray to the gods not to send you what well-wishers desire. For that which they wish to shower upon you is not good. There is only one good, and in it lies true wisdom and the cornerstone of a blessed life: to rely on oneself… and then you will become not a beggar but equal to the gods.’
Very beautiful words! Thank you, Balthazar!
Alira, were those your poems?
Right on point:
“Those who appreciate the music of love,
Need not be loved.”
Thank you for this amazing quote! But here’s the question: how to support a person in difficulties, someone who is losing hope? Should we support them? Or is it better for them if they untangle their hopelessness all by themselves? On one hand, I don’t want to be such a “well-wisher,” from whose blessings they need to rid themselves, and on the other hand, it is also impossible to remain indifferent when someone is clearly suffering and asking for support.
I think the main thing is not to increase the difficulties of a person with demonstrative sympathy for their problems and their grief.
In my view, the best thing you can do for someone in distress is to instill in them the hope that “_tomorrow morning the sun will rise again_”. And belief in this will give a person the strength to wait for the “morning.” I’ve experienced this myself! 🙂
…when a person remembers their “passed path,” it becomes the biggest challenge for them, as remembering past mistakes and actions is very painful. Usually, the ability to remember past lives arises at a certain level of development of our “Divine Self,” and at this level, it is impossible to make incorrect conclusions or evaluate past actions.