Power and Violence
The idea of Strength as the supreme value, and of battle as the Magus’s way of being, of course, is not without distortions and detractors.
Since Magic, as is well known, is «bringing reality into alignment with the practitioner’s will», the illusion arises that the creative activity of the Magus is a matter of his personal caprice.
At the same time, it is clear that creativity in the proper sense is possible only when the Magus’s will does not oppose but accords with the “master plan” — Sophia — of the cosmos.
This distortion consists in substituting concepts — will — with mere caprice, and desire — with whim.
The first to fall into the trap of this destructor was the Gnostic demiurge Ialdabaoth, who created a “corrupted” world as a result of falling away from Epinoia.
Many Magi followed his path, confusing concepts and being blinded by power.
However, creating artificial constructs — although possible — is, firstly, unproductive, since such artificial systems constantly require external energy to maintain themselves, and, secondly, destructive to the soul, since it flattens the mind’s hierarchy, sets personality at odds with individuality, and spawns a deep inner conflict in the psyche.
But while the danger of violence toward the surrounding world is more or less obvious and understandable, the danger of violence in the Magus’s relationships with the people around him appears less evident.
As soon as the Magus understands that the world around him is founded on reciprocal exploitation, he feels the urge not only to free himself from this vicious system of relations but also to ” save ” others from it. Even Masters who have walked a significant Way in Magic make this mistake, considering themselves entitled to make decisions for their students and impose their will on them.
At the same time, it is clear that freedom never grows out of unfreedom, and by forcing a student to carry out his will, the Master simply replaces one Demon with another. Power increases only when a being realizes its own will, and never when executing another’s.
Therefore the fundamental law that determines the effectiveness of magical training is the acceptance of the student as a participant in the process. The Master must place all his resources at the student’s disposal, but every use of them must come entirely from the student. The Master may only create situations that encourage the manifestation and consolidation of certain qualities in the student, but must never force him to develop. The Master should extend a helping hand, but not coerce the student. The Master should be present, but not act against the student’s will.
The Magus’s power does not lie in imposing his will, his point of view, his Way on anyone — the world, other people, or even himself. The Magus’s power is in walking his own Way, striving for freedom without faltering, without hindering anyone, steadfastly and unwaveringly continuing his development. Even if the world collapses, even if the universe disappears, the Magus’s intention must remain unshakable, and his will unyielding. Thus the Magus must remember that his battles are not brawls, his combative stance is not aggression, and that his creativity is not mere craft. Only then, by becoming a participant in Pleromic unity and changing his mode of existence from being both consumer and consumed to freely realizing, does the Magus break the vicious circle and reintegrate into the world’s fullness.
Is it correct to perceive humanity in its current state as just a usual feed for predators?
Or is there something not right in such perception?
There is no fatal destiny to become feed for a human. We simply have not matured to live without predators yet.
Thank you, as always relevant. But there is one unclear (for me, even key) moment here – will ‘saving’ and ‘healing’ be analogous actions if there is no direct consent from the recipient for such treatment? After all, if a person’s consciousness and will are constantly weakened (due to alcohol, drugs) or simply temporarily suppressed (here a stressful period may be an example, etc.), predators may take hold of the strings of attention, and essentially, the person will disappear, deprived of even the little inner freedom they had. And it is unlikely that the predators clouding their minds will want to yield any consent for treatment from themselves. I think the manifestation of Love in such a case would be perhaps even a forced act of will, like exorcism, which would provide at least a tiny chance for the person to find freedom.
It all comes down to responsibility. If someone decides to perform an exorcism without the consent of the victim, they must fully understand the scale of the responsibility they are assuming. One must understand well that no one can become possessed without somehow giving their consent. By casting out a demon/demons, the exorcist acts not only against the will of the demons themselves but also against the will of the victim who let them in. Accordingly, they take on the role of managing the psychoscosmos of the liberated. And all responsibility for subsequent events in this psychoscosmos lies with the exorcist. Therefore, before rushing to ‘free’ someone forcibly, one must understand whether the exorcist is ready for this responsibility (in the case of church exorcism, this responsibility falls on the Church as a whole, on behalf of which the exorcist acts). And even then, when we understand that the patient cannot recover on their own, that they need surgical intervention, before carrying out this intervention, it is necessary either to try to get the sick person’s consent or someone who is ready to bear the full responsibility for them. Otherwise, there is a high probability of becoming a demon for this patient and hindering their development instead of helping them.
Thank you for the clarification. I think intervening in someone else’s fate carries responsibility, but sometimes even greater responsibility lies in inaction and turning a blind eye. The policy of non-intervention often cloaks fear of recognizing a problem.
You yourself are part of humanity.
This means that all the projections you impose on them equally apply to you.
This is negative idealization.
You have already detached from society, but have not yet developed anything in yourself in return.
Contempt for others is also part of the feed. Part of the system.
And the entire realm of thought and experience is also borrowed from the rest of humanity.
The only question is how to manage it.
“The teacher must provide the student with all his resources, but all activity in their utilization must entirely come from the student.” – I categorically disagree.
If done this way, either the Student will be torn apart by the suddenly entered Streams, or (if the Student survives) we get a ‘monkey with a grenade’ and the harm will be even greater. An undeveloped consciousness, receiving Power can cause a lot of trouble.
Everything should be done in moderation and step by step, balancing on the edge – between the Authority (authoritarianism) of the Teacher and the Free will of the Student.
If the teacher is a tool for the student to gain power – they are not a teacher. Providing resources means providing the opportunity to develop consciousness, into which more power can then harmoniously enter.
My experience shows that “providing resources” and “helping to develop consciousness” are not the same thing at all.
You should not give a fish… not give a net for catching fish… you should teach how to weave a net and where to obtain thread for nets. And, while teaching, of course you can also feed them with soup:)
Knowing how to weave a net and where to find thread for nets can also be considered a resource. I think the dispute is just in the understanding of this word.
If you are saving others from the surrounding world, then be prepared either to lead them further along with you with all the consequences or to teach each of them to walk independently.
Too categorical. A person is already going by themselves, but they got into trouble, one that clearly they cannot overcome, feeling they are bent and ready to resist, but they cannot even see the enemy, the level is not right. And you see them and can help, so remove this tick from them and let them continue on their own path.
If the victim does not know that I am removing the tick at the moment and suddenly jerks unexpectedly, a piece of the tick can remain embedded in their skin, through which blood will seep out. And the victim might not notice and later become infected.
The responsibility is indeed great. Without the understanding and consent of the victim, I would not engage in such activities.
You should not intervene if you do not consider yourself a god. If a person goes through a dark period in their life, you can show them the light, give them a charge, motivate them – but do not interfere in subtle shells with a scalpel, ‘pulling out parasites.’ Do you know what is right and what is not? Can you understand the entire set of causal relationships that led to such an outcome? Essentially, you take on responsibility for someone else’s life while knowing almost nothing about it? To support – yes, to help – yes, but eliminating internal evil is the task of the person themselves, no matter how low their level is and how much more developed you are. IMHO.
Thank you, Enmerkar!
There is nothing worse than getting to a teacher with the desire to use the student as a concubine. Here he is, strong, powerful. You come to his school (after having read a sufficient amount of his books). In these books, you find such thoughts, such understanding of reality, as your own.
And here comes the real acquaintance with the teacher. And what turns out? Firstly – astral sex, love magic…
You resist, of course, and the main thing is that you don’t want to believe yourself. This cannot be! I must be mistaken. And then it comes down to battle magic.
And this is being done against you by a practically named master who preaches himself as a grey magician (that is, an executor of the will of the Higher Forces). The most interesting thing is he can see who is on your side but still pushes through like a tank. Well, you start to defend yourself – automatically – with battle magic. The Gods gave it, why not use it?
Then he begins to psychologically work on you and prove that you are abnormal, crazy.
He sees a lot, but not everything. Such people cannot see everything. He tries to destroy your life. And all because? No one has been able to refuse his “love” until now. How many broken and unformed families, ruined destinies. It is clear that everything exists in this world.
But the “teacher” calls himself an erile, that is, a conduit for Higher Forces.
I asked, is this normal, yes, is this your desire from the Higher Forces?
He, of course, received a definitive answer.
But I cannot go further, I understand, I’ve studied all the flaws of the school, all the places where he crosses the line between can – should and want.
I understand, I must speak out about this. But I do not want this mouse fuss.
Yes, they will always support, come to help, but a war is here.
Thank you, Enmerkar!
Just the fact that there is at least someone who understands you instills hope.
I did not start this war. I don’t want it, moreover, I do not want a bad outcome for anyone. And I very much hope that the “teacher” will stop at me. And that I won’t have to be a punisher to the end.
Wave, what’s the school, if it’s not a secret? I just wouldn’t want to come across this school :).
IMHO, loving the Teacher is possible, especially if the Teacher is of the opposite sex, but it must be a conscious choice. And here there should also be personal responsibility, not imposed. And a person who truly possesses Power, and not who is possessed by Power, will not inflict violence upon others. But that’s just my IMHO.
Shadowcard, what I would like to say regarding relationships. Of course, any student loves and admires the teacher. That’s normal, absolutely. I can’t even say what’s abnormal if certain relationships develop. This is the affair of two separate people, either just people or magicians. But I hate love magic, I really hate it! It’s violence against feelings!
Having read so many books, the way a person writes about Love makes you almost worship them.
And then such a letdown. On the very first seminar, you sit, listen, and suddenly… (excuse me) the energy literally pours into you up to your ears. You know, I was prepared for such relationships. Before this, a person (the one who opened the Runes) opened my eyes with their actions that you cannot trust even when there’s a ‘flood of love’. That is, you feel that so much love energy is being poured on you, but it’s all just bait, not a sincere disposition or feeling.
Of course, I shunned, closed up. Such audacity, during the seminar. Well, there were also 2 men there – I looked – they’re neither, nor are their energies. Then the “teacher” suddenly declared during the break: if a woman refuses, then a few months later you see, she’s yours (in 3 months the second level seminar). My essence was saved by his rude attitude.
He tied me to him. I sat down every day in contact, describing all events, opening up completely. Many times I deleted my profile, then restored it.
I tried to explain my position: I don’t intrude on families, etc.
At first, he tried to prove to me that I had no abilities. To which I had to respond that I did not come to learn about them, but to find out what to do with them. After the initiation on the Path of Runes, he was forced to admit that I have abilities.
From him, a certain charm and so on truly emanates. He somewhere wrote that very specific proposals were made to him by women. And he stood firm.
The pressure was strong, I just translated all that into platonic relation to him. At the second seminar, he again tried to pull me in: here, a woman dreams of something, but then she no longer wants it. He’s a psychologist by training. I don’t know whether his environment was aware of this or not, but this was during lectures at the seminar. I knew exactly where the stone was flying. When I did not react violently, he began to work on me using NLP. His main interpretation of Uruz is – untamed sexual energy. He began to show often, to carry something. I immediately understood, I closed up. Then he started talking that sometimes one Uruz is enough, and that’s it; and all of this during the seminar:), during the lecture.
After the second level seminar, a month should have been the third, on family magic. I stated in contact that after this seminar, I would not write to him anymore and take away time. And then it was no longer love but battle magic. Once, I was so tired of it that I automatically (didn’t even remember one line) put together 3 spells, maybe vises and sent with each Teiwaz along the trace.
So at the third seminar, the “teacher” looked sick (two weeks after my strike). But to my question – was I right in defending myself – he answered affirmatively. The teacher won. But for two days at the seminar on family magic, he kept showing me in front of everyone, either tapping or twisting near his temple, that I was insane, that my feminine essence is not right, so is the masculine. During breaks, two ladies even tried to teach me. I had to pretend to be a broom:)
This entire situation was psychological manipulation. He tried to prove to me that I accidentally received the gift of a berserker (I did indeed send Teiwaz in anger, of course, to get me so provoked. As I get out of the bus and fall into a slush. I didn’t even get hurt, not even wet, but the state of humiliation… At home, it felt as if all corners, tables, everything literally shifts in front of me so I would bump into them, everything flies out of my hands…)
I endured for several days, even having thoughts that I am insane. But then I snapped.
At the last seminar, immediately after it (after the journey into my ancestry under his control, and he saw me even better), he started talking about how there are cases when a second family is formed or a Swedish one. And he indicated that this is not the theme of the seminar but that he, as a psychologist, is telling us. I could not listen to it any longer, I left. For half a year, I explained to the person that I could not be like that. They made me what I am. I tried to break myself, resisted. Thus I got the understanding that I had to calm down and accept myself with such values and views on life as they are.
When I returned, he altered the subject.
But the war continued.
Now there is none.
After my first comment, there were again some pretensions towards me. Just before that (recently), I used one gifted sword, now I have two gifted. The first is from the Higher Powers (Archangel), the second is family (and there was quite a powerful magical order, only it has been lost; it will be necessary to restore it).
I would have kept silent but the upper authorities, in general, require that I speak.
I fell into his path through the prayer of one mother. He ceased to feel simply human. And one of the main rules he forgot – against Power, there will always be a greater Power. And most importantly, this is rightness. Am I not right in this situation?
One cannot love Runes like sausage, chocolate, and pleasure. And with good knowledge of the Runes, and the ability to think a little, you can always frame the question so as to get the desired answer. That’s fundamentally what the teacher taught.
But Runes are a Gift to people. They cannot be used to satisfy personal needs. Otherwise, one is no longer a runist but a sorcerer, as K. Meadows gently calls such individuals.
And it is not at all about how he uses this, but how he positions himself – as a grey magician, that is, he is a conduit of the will of the Higher Forces. Don’t they understand this? Well, I boldly addressed them. I simply cried out to the Gods about it when he started bothering me again last week. The moment was when I had a knife in hand. I was going to use the knife. Then I was reminded that I have a sword that I once asked for from one Archangel for a similar reason, more than 20 years ago. I hardly used it. And here I was advised, I dropped the knife, picked up the sword…
And after the first comment again… This time I took 2, and the family one. That is, not even using other possibilities. I do not like to fight, I am a Warrior, but I am a woman; I would prefer something else. I will have to follow Enmerkar’s advice (in one of the posts) and rise above all of this. I don’t want anyone to suffer. If this is not enough, I can use greater strength. But this is foolish. I want the person to leave me alone.
He simply gives me no choice.
Wave, my advice is: you need to rise above, but at the same time, not let yourself be brought down. Judging by your description, this person does not control himself. His main goal is to seize the Will of another person, and that can be dangerous ;).
As my Mentor loves to repeat, “I will never give you a kick in the teeth because I am humane and wise beyond my years.” But at the same time, if she is attacked – down feathers fly all over 🙂
You have skills, and you need to defend what’s rightfully yours. I would advise you to find the hooks by which this “so-called teacher” is holding you. Until you detach them – you won’t be able to rise. But with any attack, you get a chance to strike back. Keep that in mind.
Thank you for the advice, Shadowcard!
The one who opened the Runes to me taught me long ago that I can only be ruled by those whom I myself let into my life.
Now he is practically no longer able to do me harm. It’s just remnants. Previously, I defended myself passively, let’s say, now it’s time for active defense. But you also had to grow up for that 🙂
Now a little (very little) of the double Soul remains in me in the form of a swastika in one of the chakras. He tried to completely destroy me.
Today I want to add that many cities in Ukraine have his representatives. He gives their phone numbers in books. This morning I realized I should say this too.
These ladies engage in “cleaning,” they surely know how to deal with wallets. Moreover, almost immediately, his representative in Kyiv informed me that an angel would come to me so that I would accept him. I said that I would not accept anything until I understand myself. I refused, at one time, the powers of my grandmother (I didn’t go when she was dying). Because the true Ancestral Powers were cluttered by base sorcery at the level of petty and not-so-petty mischief. I didn’t understand that at the time, but I was spared.
And the angel came to me after the words of the teacher’s representative. She was upset that I refused him. Very offended at me. It seemed as if we were playing in a sandbox. Yes, he did have dark wings. But! It’s not about the color. He was a representative of her forces. Nonetheless, at that point, I already knew about the forces. Still, books by the teacher helped me. It was precisely from him that I learned about the forces, about how one could cooperate with them or obey them, etc.
For years I have declined very beneficial partnership proposals. Before the teacher, literally a year ago, I was offered a house, money, and a salary. He is a very good folk healer, a very good person. Many people of authority get treated by him. I declined. That’s why the teacher considers me abnormal? He was offered money to be with someone. And here, look – a second or Swedish family. Many would be happy. When I told an acquaintance, she replied that this is normal, that many live this way now. But I cannot do it. Even on the day when the teacher had pretensions towards me, he switched to another lady. I saw all this. Then after some time, I casually and unobtrusively asked. Judging by her reaction – she liked it. The other question is did she think about what he would give her to realize her dream of getting married and having a child (and she is already over 40). But I do not interfere when I am not asked. That’s her affair.
I still need to understand many necessary things. One cannot rush and earn money without understanding one’s own strengths, abilities, and potential influence. There is such a thing as automatic correction. It is good if there’s a chance to trace; if not, what can be done?
You can say that I am on the Path. Up to now, the Weird falls to me, in any scenario, with any question about the future. Somewhere far away I suspect it, but it is very far from what must be done. Otherwise, it would have opened already.
Now the matter is not about what he can do to me. Now the matter is what I can do.
I had support. To not give up and understand that it is worth fighting and moving forward – a Wonderful Person has shown me. Beside him, I melted with my soul. In principle, I have met nothing more wonderful in this world until him. I do not know why it is so. But it is so. This gave me the strength not to accept the existing situation. If it weren’t for him, I would not have withstood the assault from the teacher.
And now, reading Enmerkar’s blog I am convinced that there are Magicians who can be an example. Simply according to K. Meadows, my totem animal is an owl; I need an example, understanding.
In my life, the teacher is already the second magician who thinks that the universe revolves around him and acts accordingly.
That’s why it’s very important to know that not everything is so bleak, that there are true Magicians, seekers, leaders, helping to understand 🙂
wave, why didn’t you leave this “school” as soon as you started noticing unpleasant things?
These are all the consequences of more than 25 years of walking the path of Orthodox doing. There, the laws are somewhat different. You do not have the right to think ill of a person, you must attribute it to their weaknesses, and try to help. From the very beginning (after the teacher’s claims), I knew that I had to do something. I did not think it would go this far. But today I could not realistically assess my abilities if it weren’t for this war.
I left Orthodoxy a couple of years ago. I stopped getting answers to the questions. And the excuse that you do not need to know this no longer satisfied me. Moreover, I am fed up with that general sorcery, petty mischief. Today in our church, you cannot enter so they don’t do something to you. I am tired of it all. And also from the inside (after more than 20 years in the choir, reading psalms, singing…) I am fed up with seeing this disgrace and deceitfulness on the part of the ministers.
At one beautiful moment, I turned to the Father, and the Runes came to me.
Moreover, there was pressure from the side of the Orthodox egregore – I was meant to become a fool for Christ. And if 20 years ago I wanted to help people like Ksenyushka, lately I did not want to. It’s one thing when people unconsciously make mistakes out of ignorance. And it is completely different when it is done consciously. This cannot be corrected. The souls have become so harsh that it is sometimes simply impossible to break through. But I was under pressure. They show me what is wrong in a person’s soul, his problems and exits, and then if I do nothing, my conscience tortures me so much that I could go mad. I tried to get rid of my capabilities, thought I would get a lover, sin (imagine how foolish one can be with such abilities – to look into a person’s soul and naively believe that the sin of fornication would take these abilities away)))
Truth be told, I ended up with a Buddhist lover. He changed my view of Orthodoxy (not my faith but the very institution).
Then there was a petition to the Father.
In me is embedded the Orthodox desire to help a person, no matter what situation he is in, who he is. I will remember all my life that I am a human being, no matter what abilities and knowledge I may possess. I treat other people the same way, regardless of their position, etc.
Believe me, I do not consider myself Mother Teresa; I can’t do it any other way.
I have read the teacher’s books; they contain a lot of, very much good and correct from my point of view.
That’s why I didn’t leave immediately. Moreover, I was brought to him. Just many years ago, I said to the Father – here I am – take and do everything you think necessary.
This was my choice; I cannot say that it was very conscious, but at that moment I wanted to help everyone and everything.
When I refused to be foolish (I saw how it would end – I was meant to be foolish with priests. They would stone me on the guidance of “proper” parishioners. They would profit and steal, lead the people astray (and how would I be, doing this, and you are who, that you see more than me. You know, the local ones just fear me, even though I remain silent. This isn’t mine. They understand perfectly what they are doing. I don’t want to interfere).
I didn’t become foolish, but I understood what I had been doing for years. I was confronted with sorcerers, and I have been fighting against them for many years. When there was already no strength in Orthodoxy in such a situation, the Runes came to me, the understanding of what Magic is. Not the petty malice occultism, but Magic. This is what the one who opened the Runes drilled into my mind.
He practically “rolled a tank” over me. But that was preparation for meeting the teacher.
I understood approximately six months ago how I was just being used from above. Different sorts and degrees of knowing, treating, extrasensatives “come to me” (mostly, I do not seek adventures). They usually start to agitate and call me to them. I refuse (the reason I have written in the previous comment). They begin to pressure, use their powers. I begin to explain that freedom of choice has been given from Above; you cannot pressure me or anyone at all. Usually, by this time, I see all the errors, that the directions in their activities are not right, etc. If a person realizes (which is very rare but does happen), they step back. Perhaps they do not change completely, but stop applying violence. If not – war begins. It is not easy, but the truth is on my side. It turns out that the one who comes against me breaks against their own magic, it is self-destruction through incorrect actions.
There are Cosmic Laws that cannot be violated. These Laws are different for each color. Both whites and darks and greys violate them. Well, from above they throw situations for me to sort this out based on the principle – do no harm, but do not allow what cannot be allowed. And this I have been doing for many years, both in Orthodoxy and now. It just becomes stronger over time. At the seminar, a magician from one of Kyiv’s magical schools was present. He lacks feminine energy. He (on the suggestion of the teacher’s representative) began to approach me little by little with proposals. It came down to him threatening me, saying that if I refuse the Master’s proposal, then I would have unpleasant consequences. That is, he practically laid a curse on me. Before that, I was joking with him, but after this, I gave him an appropriate response.
Do you know what he did? He plugged in his teachers. I saw that they were working on me in threes. Such important ones, in cloaks… This school no longer exists. Please do not think that everything is so easy and simple. It was hard. But again, I did not start this war.
Regarding this school, I was informed that this is simply siphoning money from people. Therefore, I calmly did what I did.
Even now I write because I have to do this, not because I want to.
Whoever needs to read this will read it.
The thing is that there are many women who are satisfied with such relationships. There are some who tried to break free, but it didn’t work out.
Someone also had to not just resist.
Or from above they do not see what is happening?
Thank you for such a detailed response. They will certainly keep pushing, and the further it goes, the more it will happen, but why do you agree to fight? To prevent them from being able to harm you, it is usually enough to cease all communication and, as Shadowcard said, remove all connections. Your desire to save the world would be infinitely more useful in more peaceful and constructive actions. Violence against violence only further destroys the world, as mentioned in the latest article by Enmerkar.
Thank you.
I understand, of course, that they will try to manipulate. But that’s exactly what I want to change in my life. Until now, I accepted everything as obligations. If many perceive altruism as something grand, I personally see it as a disease. I lived as an altruist for many years. It is time for change. This is why I started studying Runes.
But when I demanded last week to be explained how long the teacher’s ‘encroachments’ would continue, why it happens, and why nothing is done from Above, they gently and quietly answered that for doing, they have me. The war is going on here on Earth. That’s that. That’s one thing.
And the fact that a wizard is constantly in a state of war, Enmerkar speaks about it here a little https://en.enmerkar.com/magus-way/byt-magom.
And here it fully describes why there is a constant war https://enmerkar.com/en/way/the-battlefield-earth
And it is quite clear why it is happening, it is written here https://enmerkar.com/en/magic/why-is-it-dangerous-to-befriend-magic
You can’t imagine how many times I tried to just live in life. Yeah, that’s how it went. Since I was 15, I couldn’t understand why I needed something different, why the elementary concept of happiness doesn’t suit me? Why, and most importantly, what do I need for happiness?
It’s really like a curse. I tried so many times to break myself – without result, or rather the result was a complete absence of an internal core, without which you can’t live at all.
Do you think I throw myself into battle with joy?
As you can see, I had to be brought to such a state when I can no longer tolerate and start responding.
I asked many times, why? Why do I need this as a woman?
They still don’t say – Wyrd and that’s it.
I would like to at least for a while to ‘be a happy chicken in the coop.’
The only thing is, there is a Path where you can rise above all this. But I must finish what I started and what is unfinished.
I just really wanted to have a Teacher, or at least a travel companion. No. All by myself. It’s so hard. Therefore, when I find posts like those of Enmerkar, it gives at least a little understanding that you are on the right Path and you correctly understand what is happening.
And moreover, it’s hard for me to navigate all these ‘sharp corners’ because there is always a mass of those willing to ‘nourish.’
I usually don’t fixate, but when I start to fight, everyone is hit. Then they are surprised, what have I done to you? And how did it happen?
And that’s how it happens. It’s like using anti-vampirism spells. If a person is a vampire themselves, setting such a spell will harm them. But can this be explained to everyone? That many things happen automatically. I can endure for a long time, and then I’ll ‘gather’ these ‘well-wishers’ and with one sweep. It’s good if the person understands, but if not?
Who is to blame?
The blog is open, many read it, and where is the guarantee that someone is not trying to invade and vampirize (from any of the commentators). Friends, I don’t advise it. It’s clear that not everyone does this. But sometimes you can encounter a worthy answer.
Enmerkar shares with us such observations and insights, which may never be revealed to many of us. And most importantly, it helps those on the Path and those without a Teacher (perhaps I haven’t matured, or I am harmful, that’s why they don’t give it to me 🙂
And it’s one thing to comment, answer questions, and share, and quite another when someone tries to feed off you. There are many other resources for this.
I wouldn’t come out with my comments. On the one hand, you receive good advice, and on the other, you become a target – an attempt to vampirize. And everyone who does this considers themselves undeniably smarter than others. And it’s in vain!
Simplicity is the luxury of kings.
wave, good evening. I read your story, a lot of emotions, feelings, experiences. Everything is intertwined. It’s not my practice to write comments and give advice. But something reminded me, not situationally, rather emotionally. As a conclusion, you just need people who will perceive you as you are, regardless of whether you decide to live alone in the wild forest or like a Swedish family. This is allegorical. That is, regardless of your decisions. At least.Again where the personal does not overlap with the shared, and if overlaps, then it’s voluntary. If, of course, I understood you correctly. In general, where they can Respect your feelings, you can respond in kind. And if this doesn’t happen, and vice versa, then it’s really better to cut all contacts, it won’t lead to anything good in my view. The way our World is structured, not everyone can find mutual understanding with us. But we didn’t create it, and it’s not for us to redo. There are many articles in the blog that deserve attention. Even all. There is one: who should save the world. Each person is uniquely special in their own way, and battles do not occur with people, but for self-identity. This is a bit of a different matter. However, the negative reaction is very dangerous, it creates vortices that come back to us. If it arises, it is better to redirect it. Use it for your purposes that will serve you. Also, less attention to vampires, if you are familiar with NLP, they give you part of their energy, just a plus. The main thing is that you don’t react and don’t give away more. Mostly, it’s all available in the blog. Wishing you all the best.
Thank you, Irina!
I agree with you. But there is a little misunderstanding. I absolutely do not strive to save the world. It is impossible and foolish to save what is almost consciously destroying itself.
These battles are really battles for oneself, for the opportunity of self-determination, for the right of free choice. It is possible and necessary to accept what helps in the movement. What slows down, especially like that, must be removed. Sometimes very harshly. I didn’t rush into battle immediately. I spent six months explaining to a person that I came for knowledge, behaved adequately, as a student fulfilling all the training conditions. There just wasn’t an additional point in the conditions: astral sex, part of the payment for education 🙂
That’s disgusting. I can’t allow anyone to treat me that way.
This is written emotionally here. But in reality, it was a complete destruction of me from the inside by means of battle magic and destruction of the outer world (one of the consequences – losing my job).
You see, complete destruction just because I refused to be a mistress.
Yeah, with such ones, you know what needs to be done? I was told that I was simply the last straw. You can’t imagine how many fates the ‘teacher’ has ruined; the school has been around for quite some time. There were many who agreed, they liked it. That’s their business. But even more who resisted. And here such a macho appears, once, I am the lord of the world, I’ll put you in your place and that’s it! And he did. And I experienced how he does it.
I wouldn’t have believed myself completely if I hadn’t seen the activities of this macho.
What can we say about redirecting energy in battle magic.
Thank you for your advice, Irina. You simply saw in me an offended woman and the reaction of an offended woman.
That exists too. But the main thing here is human relations regardless of gender.
I’m sorry for such long comments. I think if even one of the women reads and understands what I wanted to convey – she will be protected from such violence. And there is a lot of it now, as well as schools that lead not just nowhere but to violent subjugation.
There is nothing wrong with subjugation itself. I am ready to submit with great pleasure to the true, but not the surrogate. Just people have the freedom of choice. And that has not been canceled.
wave, in your posts, besides the information about what happens in the world, about your powers and the desire to help others, I hear a plea for help. In your story, there is a teacher and a Father. Is there a Mother in it? It is she who helps her daughters, especially the beloved Persephones.
Wave, regarding ‘to submit’, I don’t completely agree (although maybe this is part of your Path? I don’t know). But I know at least 3 websites where I dwell and three quite strong people whom I can trust in terms of information (and that’s not counting the Mentor :)). If you’re interested in Companions – first of all, Enmerkar shows the Path well (a friend was at his seminar – changed gradually, but specifically). Secondly, Amenhotep dwells here, he is also quite an intelligent person. Thirdly, there is a resource led by our Mentor. So you can find people on the network that guide to the real. But you will have to move ON YOUR OWN, even if in a group of like-minded people. And the path can be individual.
By the way, your path is really similar to that of a Warrior;)
Thank you, Shadowcard!
I currently have direction, I know where and how to go and with whom.
There are just moments I need to talk about. I was scared to reveal all this for public view. After all, it is clear that the reaction can be different. They might even call me a fool 🙂
To submit in the sense of trusting a person.
I have already reconciled to the fact that the path is individual. Well, today I was a bit indignant this morning and that’s it.
Thank you for the Warrior. I never considered myself such. When I do the Celtic Cross layout, the runes say to me – you don’t understand, you strive to be a Warrior, but you have long been a Warrior of Spirit. That’s how this layout accustoms me to the thought that I am a Warrior. And the last events only confirmed it. I have never fought so openly and strongly before, only against myself. My wars were passive. The attackers destroyed themselves with their own magic. It seems the time has come to see myself from another side. Not so that now it’s ‘sword drawn’ and forward, to the barricades :), but so that I know what I can do. I have asked many times, why? Why did I need to come to Runes this way? Now the answer is obvious. It just writes easily. But I know that even among those who read, there are those who understand (see) how much it costs me. That is why sometimes I want to be in the ‘coop’ 🙂
“I would like at least for a while to ‘be a happy chicken in the coop’ :). Been there, done that, it didn’t work out… Good luck, wave!
Dear friends!
I am very grateful to you for participating in my life situation. Thank you for your support and help.
Everything turned out as it should have. And the post by Enmerkar, otherwise I would have continued to remain silent about what I had to share. No, I could have kept quiet. But it would have been wrong.
Forewarned is forearmed.
The blog of Enmerkar is read by many. Not everyone gets into such situations. But there are also many women. I shared my experience. Some understand me, some do not.
I just did what I had to do.
But at the same time, I received support for which I am grateful to everyone who took part in discussing an incident from my life.
Now I just want to forget about it and move on, not looking back.
Respectfully, wave.