Credo
no sickness is worse
for a wise man
than the inability to find
satisfaction in anything
Hávamál (The Sayings of the High One)
The Druids allotted 20 years for study…
20 years before this blog came into being, I too began to learn. Not that I now consider myself “fully trained.” Yet perhaps what I have come to know and what I have learned may be
useful (or at least interesting) to someone else as well…
of course, Power is not found in the world of words… and yet, “In the beginning was the Logos”…
This blog did not appear as a finished work, not as a book or a publication.
It arose simply as the reflections of a wanderer. Reflections along the Path and reflections about the Path.
On this blog, alongside my own original articles (when it is a matter of the Path and the Law), you can also find compilations based on materials from various other sources (when it is a matter of Myth and of history). Both appear along my path as reflections of the processes that unfold in response to this path.
And there is another very important point – for whom this blog is created. For every undertaking must have meaning… First of all, it is for seekers, since the rather long way that I have travelled may help others to arrive at conclusions, reflections, ideas that might be of use to fellow wanderers.
And I in no way believe that the discoveries I have made can be useful or relevant for everyone. The world is infinitely diverse, and precisely in this diversity lies its wondrous capacity to offer suitable Paths for all. This means that what has turned out to be true for me may not be so for others, and this does not mean that one of us is more right, more intelligent or stronger – it only means that we have different Paths.
I am very far from the idea of “spreading” my knowledge and views, from any goal of creating schools or, heaven forbid, sects. The only thing I seek, in maintaining this blog, is to share my experience. Even if you regard my experience as “nonsense,” you can still draw benefit from it (for example, by trying to formulate exactly how your experience differs from mine). In this sense my thoughts may help you hone your own Myth.
My deep conviction is that a wanderer on the path of Magic must not take on faith any ideas, concepts, or methods until they have tested them upon themselves, upon their own Path. Therefore, everything I write about has been lived through by me. On this blog there is and will be not a single article, not a single sentence, idea, or assertion that has not been passed through my own Path, not tested by me personally.
At the same time, I by no means wish to replace the paths of others with my own path, and so there will be no specific practical recommendations here, no complete solutions to problems, but only an outline of issues and the posing of questions, whose solutions and answers will aid in one’s own advancement. I would also like to hope that those who have already travelled a considerable way will likewise be able to find something of interest for themselves by comparing the problems that once stood before me with their own.
Another point important for understanding my position is that, unlike religion, Magic does, to a certain extent, allow the blending of Traditions. Even though every mythological system is a closed, coordinated and self-sufficient whole (that is, in the Myth one cannot achieve effective results by mixing Traditions), it contains practical aspects that may turn out to be effective in another system as well. This means that while the syncretization of world-descriptions is usually unproductive, the syncretization of practical approaches quite can prove fruitful for a particular wanderer. At the same time, such a combination must always be carefully justified in theory and verified in practice.
I would like, in advance, to apologize to those authors who may find in these compilations their own thoughts without any copyright notice… It is hard to be the author of an idea 🙂 And in truth, I make no claim to authorship; I simply wish to share the thoughts and sensations of the current in which I live. And if the same thoughts come to us, that is more good than bad.
Having passed through my soul, these words and thoughts become mine as well, just as (I hope) my words, passing through someone else’s soul, will be understood and resonant, giving form to thoughts that until then were only a vague feeling. A feeling of the Path.
And if a thought has been spoken, embodied – is it really so important whose words and formulations were used?
The poems, for example, are mine 🙂
Through the dark, out of the dark, –
With feet worn bloody raw.
The houses smoke, the bridges blaze,
A startled, twitching brow.
I’ll tear the cycle of the days,
Despising rotted norms;
Defy the will of earthly kings
And rise up from my knees.
In midnight’s shroud I’ll disappear,
Breathe in the dawn’s cool dew;
I’ll laugh at every solemn word
And knock the lanterns out.
Out of the dark – through all the dark,
Blood washed in puddles thin;
And over burning, broken bridge
I’ll pass, with furrowed brow.
Not glancing back at any barrier,
Not heeding rumor or its cry,
Despising rain and falling stone –
I swim in water, burn in fire.
And even in the heaviest doubts,
And even in the hour of thought’s turmoil,
I will not beg for any mercy,
Nor turn the volume of the roar down.
And in the solitude of evening,
And in the light of morning hopes
I shall stay faithful to the world’s great secret,
Explaining nothing to the ignorant.
Let every step be clumsy – yet it’s taken;
Let every voice be quiet – still it sounds;
As long as there is salt, and quicksilver, and sulfur –
I walk, while in my chest the beating pounds…
Receiving from the depths of Mind
My cross, my sword, my aching grief,
I shall return to the world’s first springs
Across the blistering desert sands…
From unimagined heights the fall
Is worse the longer lasts the flight;
The deeper are the pits of Lethe,
The thicker phantom dust accretes.
Raising from the world’s deep core the Power,
I’ll carry it unscathed through dark.
I shall not sob: “Lord, have mercy!”,
And let the foe not celebrate.
I dare, I want, and I do know,
Of many mysteries – I’ll hold my tongue…
And from myself I do not run,
Nor yield my soul unto the headsman.
Come, let us go to where is day,
Where no one’s lessons are required,
Come, walk with me, cast off your sloth,
Come where no road has yet been trod!
We’ll run, and holding tight to hands,
Destroy all fleeting, mortal norms,
We’ll go, now laughing, now in tears,
We’ll go, far from the rot of stasis!
Forget the cold, we’ll smash the ice,
And, joyful, rushing toward the Sun
We’ll go, we’ll go, we’ll go, we’ll go –
To drink life in one draught, to the last drop!
Hello, I have worked with many traditions and in different areas. But I am almost a novice in Druidism; I want to learn.
TO: Grot
Hello! Are you sure that it is necessary to cover ALL traditions?
The name “Enmerkar” translates to “Lord of the Arrow” or “Lord of the Bow” in Sumerian. Yes, this name does indeed refer to the mythical (or semi-mythical) king of the Sumerian city of Uruk. Enmerkar is known from Sumerian literature, particularly in texts that describe his legendary exploits and his role in the establishment of civilization in the region.
It does.
If it’s direct :), maybe you know the endings of several stories, otherwise you read and read, and then bam – “this story ends – the tablets did not survive”? And also, is there in the pagan tradition you know, an explanation of “reincarnation” and ways of “regaining the memory of past lives” of the individual? I think it might have both magical value: restoring past experience – the power of Consciousness, and social value: restoring history from the “primary source”.
Yes, I plan to write the endings of several stories on the blog in the future 🙂
First of all, “people who can’t do anything and don’t understand anything” don’t read blogs 🙂 Secondly, if you think this could benefit you—of course, you can. However, on the condition that you manage to create an effective group. If you still desire it, please write a letter.
Hello. I don’t even know where to start. There seems to be a lot on the site, but I don’t understand the basics. First of all, I wanted to know – how is it even possible to determine your level? If you have links to texts on this matter or can suggest something, I will be waiting eagerly for your response (you can email me).
The entire Path needs to be walked – step by step. And each previous step guarantees the next 🙂
This strange and wonderful feeling — To walk the Path. About 15 years ago I just embarked on the Way. Sometimes I would stray off… Sometimes I would return. Now, being a sufficiently mature woman, I realize how nice it is to be MYSELF and walk On my Path. What you carry so courageously is very needed by many. We are scattered around the world. We are born in various parts of the world. How often knowledge and experience are lacking… Of course, my family and I, rather, we join you. It is joyful to meet someone like you on my Path. I want to wish you one thing: Do not stop BEING!
Thank you 🙂
“I don’t know a worse affliction in the world than the anguish of the spirit” (Speech of the High). I copied this from your blog, but since it doesn’t belong to you, I’m using it for my own purposes now, as this phrase can characterize my current state. I ask you for help. Please write to me. I will explain everything in correspondence.
Could you please tell me who your teacher was? And to which magical school do you belong?
You have a very interesting blog; I’m seeing something truly related to magical art for the first time.
Hello! I stumbled upon it by chance but apparently for a long time, as I have much to enrich my knowledge base on My Path.
Hooray!!!
I found what I have been searching for so long!
Thank you, Enmerkar!!!
Hello, Enmerkar! Thank you for the enormous amount of useful information. I would really like to learn, but I don’t know where to start. Of course, it’s good to read everything indiscriminately, but I would like to systematize everything somehow – all in order – with feeling, with sense, with arrangement 😉 – without haste and fuss. I would be very grateful for your help and advice.
Hello! To understand where to start and in what direction to move, you need to try to figure out what attracts you, to what you feel affinity. This is called – the Search for the Path. So start with that 🙂
I see… So it turns out I’ve already started 🙂 Thank you!!!!!
Amazing poem! I really liked it. Great!
Regarding the Sumerians, something suddenly came to mind. Once I had a dream where there was a building, and there were people, but they didn’t notice me. Then, after a year or more, I took a topic on Sumer at university, started writing, opened books, and there was my building, or rather a temple complex. I only dreamed of a new and lively version of it. What can this be attributed to? I haven’t dreamed of anything Sumerian apart from this; it’s a one-time occurrence. I am quite fascinated by dreams and dreaming; I would like to know more about it in light of Tradition.
Greetings from the Vaishnavas! Valuable blog. Valuable tracks on VKontakte. We might know each other. You have a wonderful integrity! I have long planned to engage in druidism; there’s a great forum somewhere in the archives…
That’s it, Enmerkar, I’ve come to the conclusion that I am a druid. I have already been called that by completely unfamiliar people (they said ‘master druid’), but unfamiliar people are not an authority; I am the authority for myself, and not someone unknown. And I have a mega project on this topic, druidic. I will train according to the complete program; the project is absolutely necessary.
Well, yes, I haven’t read your whole blog yet and don’t know what kind of person you are; don’t take it personally. By the way, I gave myself a Sumerian name, but I don’t know much about it, so forget it. In general, I am an extremely versatile person, but I won’t let down Living Nature.
So I’ll be green 🙂 What do you think? Although there’s really nothing special to say here… I just don’t want to tarnish your wonderful clean blog with any rubbish. It’s like alive with you, potentially.
Alive? Then ours! Then it’s you and me. Alive in death? Come to us.
Dear Sir! I have a huge request for you.
Would you be so kind as to send me your email or write your email in response? We need your help, you are the only one who can guide us on what to do. We are not asking for teaching, just to point us in the right direction.
Thank you in advance and I hope for a response.
openwoord@mail.ru
feedback@enmerkar.com – contact email address.
Thank you for the valuable information! I have been looking for something like what you have in your blog for a long time. I stay with you…!
Overall assessment of the blog –
it is very difficult, extremely difficult to understand some articles – they are much harder than Castaneda’s.
I dreamed of some stories supposedly from the existence of Marduk… but I have no confidence that someone didn’t deceive me. And I hardly remember that. And generally, the description of Marduk in Wikipedia (not now, but earlier) is quite close to me… Just a moment 🙂
I am a relatively recent internet user, and I came to your site while searching for the query ‘intermittence of consciousness’… ?!
The flow of consciousness in your blog has garnered respect. My impressions: some things are close, others are similar or in development. A worthy culture of consciousness. Thank you.
Having recited a couple of lines from your verses… I heard the word “Strength.” 🙂 Now I’m memorizing it, and that will be more useful. 🙂
Hello, Enmerkar. I really liked your blog. Today I found the answer to my question on your blog. I feel that I will learn a lot of new things. Thank you for what you do.
Hello =) I just found your blog; very interesting articles! And an excellent music selection on the main page, very harmonious.
Hello. It is important to see in person that you are not the only one seeking the Light.
Thank you for the clarity, firmness, and kindness of the texts.
I stumbled upon this accidentally and stayed for a long time.
Thank you for the articles. Your blog is the best I have found online on this topic.
For several days I couldn’t pull myself out of depression. I realized I can’t articulate what I want or what I’m waiting for. I consider it a miracle that I accidentally stumbled upon your topic about soul thieves. Now I know! I need to find a path. And then walk it. I ask you to be my teacher. It will not be difficult for you. My first step will be to read your articles. If I have questions, I will write. The main thing is, don’t get lost.
Your letters are of great benefit, Enmerkar. They help in harmonizing life and achieving tranquility.
However, people with weak psyches should read carefully.
But there is considerable harmonization. Thank you.
Good day. I have been periodically reading your articles since October of last year, but I only wrote today. I am just at the very beginning of the Path and I completely agree with you that everything should be experienced personally. Some things written by you are not immediately understood by me, but after some time I reread and realize the reading. And yes! I already clearly know that if there is a choice between Power and Love – I choose Love.
A wonderful Beacon, (a great rarity in this era) pointing the Way, another stage, another particle of elements for the Puzzle. The Purity (Honor) and Power of the author stimulate the Will and strengthen the axis of the system, in the quest for freedom, in the struggle, to be victorious. Thank you!
Thin paths, sharp cliffs. Thousands of suns, the source is Unity. And you walk towards your sun, against all the realities and ghosts. The sun burns the soul to ashes, it burns everything – darkness, distortions, illusions. And step by step, you fill yourself with golden light, and the world underfoot loses its shape, melts in the dawn mist, trembles and shimmers with facets. You see – you are a vessel, glued from thousands of fragments, your essence – is Emptiness. The boundary has been crossed – but you keep moving forward, firmly knowing that the reverse side of the sun is Darkness, and you understand that only by uniting them in your heart can you truly complete this stage. Good luck to us all.
Beautiful! Only, as it seems to me, first is Darkness, and only then the Sun, at the very center of this Darkness. Good luck!
In my opinion, it depends on which side the path is started from)
Good afternoon. I wanted to read the book ‘The Sacred Magic of Abramelin the Mage’ and ended up here. Everything is very interesting. I also read a little about druids. You are a very interesting person.
The verses resonate with the soul. They contain my intentions. Loneliness can be hard. The conversation with you supported me. Thank you.
Thank you, Enmerkar!
Reading you, I now have at least some understanding of the world, chaos, and microcosm, which I greatly lacked.
And a huge thanks for showing me what Orthodoxy does. Simply put, my core is Orthodoxy. I was able to see and separate from the Path of an Orthodox person what is imposed by modern institutes. It is very painful to live in misunderstanding.
Based on the vision and understanding of the world described by you, I saw Orthodoxy in its true form, what it does and how it relates to a person. And most importantly, I understood why it is this way, with so many limitations, practically without the possibility of choice. This, in its time, made me doubt the correctness of the Path on which I spent a couple of decades. Simply put, this is a Path for any person, meaning the opportunity, without any magical abilities, knowledge, and possibilities to reach that divine aspect which is inherently embedded within every person. I could not comprehend such a multitude of limitations on the Path. They never stopped me, except the limitation of knowledge: you should not know this, just believe. It became absolutely impossible to continue to look at and endure the amount of petty wickedness (and not so wicked) sorcery and believe that since this happens in my life, it means it’s needed for saving my soul. This is partly true, i.e. it is the peak, surface approach. Everything is much more complex, but there is no one to explain it to. Those who are called and set for such purposes are so busy fixing their own situations that they have no time to understand what is happening, let alone explain it to people to make it easier to walk. In my consciousness, understanding, everything fell into its place. Without this, I couldn’t move forward.
The soul says THANK YOU to the Soul:
You opened the Path for me in the darkness
There, I, for a moment lost,
Wandered – who will help me?
Good day! I’ve been reading your blog for several days now, it resonates deeply with my spirit, everything is simple and easy to understand. I’ve taken a lot of useful information from your articles and found answers to questions that have interested me for a long time. Huge human thanks for your work!!!
There is a charm in them.
Thank you, Enmerkar! It is precisely from you that I was able to find answers to many questions… from here on out, I will have to go it alone, and your blog is very helpful on my path)))
Enmerkar, I would gladly like to possess the knowledge you share. I have always been interested in learning something new in this world. To some extent, I am also interested in films that have some meaning about magic. Thank you for the blogs; some themes and your thoughts are truly worth a lot. It will be interesting to visit this blog.
As for many others, this blog has become a kind of lantern of Hecate for me, illuminating the chaos that awaits any seeker and student. Much coincides with my own worldview and even somehow systematizes my mix of philosophies, techniques, and experiences related to magic. Perhaps this is the answer to my long-forming intention to walk the path, to my calls to certain initiatory deities, no matter how foolish that may sound.
In any case, I sincerely thank you for the blog. You are probably the most interesting of the modern teachers of magic, although oddly enough, you remain slightly in the shadows. I will read and try to comprehend everything that is written here at the moment.
Yes, we are sick, and naturally, we search for the medicine that will heal us and our world. The knowledge of the ancients is what the doctor ordered 🙂
Wonderful poetry and blog!!! Thank you! For some reason, these verses came to mind:
The reflection of crooked mirrors…
The silence of the impenetrable night…
– I searched for you for so long…
– I was waiting for you… very, very…
And racing towards each other
Two Universes… Ice and Flame…
And words lost their meaning…
And the Earth floated beneath their feet…
And hearts beat in unison,
Approaching, to merge together…
The endless canon of our feelings…
Our Souls – two White Birds…
A quiet sadness will spill…
The face of the Moon. Fog. Starry alley.
– I will wait for you… I will wait…
– I will find you… I will be able to…
Hello!
You just drop by someone’s place and don’t notice that it has gotten dark long ago. 🙂
Thank you for your blog.
Good day, Enmerkar. I have been a long-time reader of yours. It has been a while since your last article. I’m worried, is everything alright with you?
“I will laugh at every word and knock out the lanterns.” I liked it. Very selfless and witty.
Good day. Could you tell me what is usually associated with the spirit’s yearning?
Hello. It’s a feeling of unrealized potential, that he is capable of more than he currently sees in himself.
Yes, I understand, I had a similar phase. Thank you. And one more question, are you referring to the Spirit called SAH?
No, in this context it simply refers to the general state of the psyche. More about the concept of ‘spirit’: https://enmerkar.com/en/myth/the-journey-of-the-spirit about ‘SAH’: https://enmerkar.com/en/way/knowledge-and-conversation-activation-of-the-higher-matrices
I know no other
sickness in the world
than the torment of the spirit.
Everything is spot on!!!
Hello. I performed some act on a mental level. And instead of myself, in that place where I stood, I saw a girl rise in white with light clothing. I was looking for who this might be. I stumbled upon your site and realized that a Fairy soared in my place… what to do with this and how to understand it. She is beautiful and flying. How to understand, is this me, or is she helping me? Amazing)))
“Your poems touched me very much. I read your articles periodically. Thank you.”
I used to be in the world of fairies, then I searched for information about it. And I met you again, En!
I am very glad! Thank you!