Belief in Oneself and Doubt
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Originally published in Russian: Enmerkar.com
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In that case, to not lose faith, one must learn to see the aura of people. That would be enough to know that if you can do that, then everything else is also accessible 🙂
Hmm… And still, one question continues to torment me: can magic serve as a ‘religion’ for a magician? Should a magician believe in magic, in its effectiveness, similar to how they believe in gods, or is magic a precise science that requires primarily knowledge and understanding of techniques?
Both approaches are possible. Magic will work whether a person believes in it or simply precisely reproduces the ritual.
Thank you. I answered my own question.
Sometimes the minutes of “realization” that Your Path is “false” (given to us by our companion well-wishers) cost us months of wandering in the darkness of disbelief and powerlessness.
SOMETIMES MORE THAN MONTHS, ENLIGHTENMENT IS GIVEN FOR A MOMENT AND THEN DARKNESS DESCENDS.
No, there are no steps whatsoever. You are right, Svetlana, it’s darkness. I don’t know where to go, what to do. It is all just a game in magic. I cannot do this. When there is no clear direction given to me, I wander. I understand that I need to do something, but what?? Guessing… flailing? They do not teach magic on the internet. Stupidly pretending to be a seeker and saying that I’m looking for a path… nonsense. You read these lines and say another one has given up like.. who cares.
This is indeed how it happens. You don’t know where to go, and you can’t go on like this, and you even ‘give up’, but then you realize that returning to the semi-alive, semi-asleep human consciousness is even worse, it’s like death. And you understand that it’s better to guess and flail, and so until the next enlightenment, until, with the accumulation of experience and will, the periods of darkness become shorter and are replaced with illumination. No one ever called the Path a pleasant stroll through a paradise garden.
Why are you stirring people up.. why are you pulling them into magic. You know well, it’s a dead end for most. They don’t teach online… for the majority, a dead end is… just games. And now I feel that I can’t live without it.. that it’s mine, but I don’t know what to do and it’s bad for me.. I’m burning all over.. What, should I turn to cults or sit at home and pretend to be wise? YES, this is nonsense and you know it.
And about returning to the ‘world’ of people.. where is this world? I do not see it. I see only emptiness.. illusion. Everything is virtual. I have started to see this emptiness. And my next step is to try to find the real within this illusion. To sift and gather grain by grain what creates this Reality. The whole secret is that it is around us, but I just haven’t yet understood how to see and realize it. It may be in the rush of the wind, or in the twilight silence of rocks.
Numen, they really don’t teach magic online. I have been trying not to miss a single publication of Enmerkar for several years now – He does not teach magic on his site, but He extends a hand and helps to walk this path. Moreover, even if My worldview, My Myth does not coincide with His Myth. You can write to Me at My email: cheb_rostov@inbox.ru, maybe I can help with something. Sincerely, M.
This happens either when the intensity decreases or when the thread of the path is lost https://en.enmerkar.com/magus-way/xolod-i-pustota, accordingly, you must either apply more effort or look for a way out of the dead end. There surely is one, just a step away from you, but it’s very carefully disguised. It might be this direction of magic, which seems uninteresting so far, a close person whom you don’t notice, nature, or some activity; perhaps your teacher is already waiting somewhere for you. But usually, some distractor, a false understanding of things, prevents seeing this. I would like to ask you, Enmerkar, if there is a possibility and need, to write more about this state, or to give links if you have already written. This is a frequent and painful state for many travelers, especially if there is no Teacher.
In such situations, reviewing your possibilities and impossibilities, the accessible and inaccessible paths, etc. may help. Read: https://enmerkar.com/en/runes/freedom-on-ones-own-land
There are plenty of teachers around. The presence of a Teacher will not help if you do not commit yourself 200%. The Teacher does not walk your Path for you… If the Teacher has indicated a direction, it does not mean that it will be the easiest in that direction… A warrior is forged in battle, a softie grows in a cradle… Mage and Warrior are practically synonyms 🙂
There are several magical sayings-aphorisms about ‘faith in oneself’ that are useful to remember and not forget… for seekers and travelers. An elderly wise woman would often repeat to her 5-year-old granddaughter: ‘- Strength is forged like steel.’ An elderly wise man loved to say to his 7-year-old grandson: ‘- Be as solid as a rock, but do not become a stone. – Shout but pull.’ The starting point, the axis line, the golden section, support, path, and map, God and temple, Universe and the key to it – in your garden, never forget this, whatever the raging ocean around whispers.
A lot can be written beautifully about Magic and the Path. I will explain. No one refuses to work. No one refuses the Path. When I first got into and got involved in this blog in early 2010, I was happy. It was truly work. I spent several hours each day studying each article. At first, it was difficult with understanding, but then it became easier and clearer. I realized a lot, and sometimes my consciousness couldn’t process and absorb everything, which manifested in heating my head (literally). And I think it is incorrect to say that En does not teach magic. There was a genuine teaching taking place. At least, this blog, in my opinion, was conceived this way. There was a transmission of Power, and those who wanted, took it and grew. But later, the transmission of Power began to dry up, and the blog turned into answers to questions. Perhaps it was intended as a benchmark to strive for. But after tasting the noble wine and appreciating its taste, I do not want to drink anything else, than to drink whatever. This does not apply to those who currently help me to move on and gift faith in my strengths. Another point I would like to pay attention to and which is somehow omitted is that Magic is primarily Continuity. This is the Transmission of Knowledge accumulated over millennia. I should not invent the wheel. Yes, I must walk myself, and no one should pull me along, but at least at the beginning, the one who pushed me and whom I took by the hand must walk beside me. And to write that this blog is not Magic education is unnecessary. This is not true.
“…But later, the transmission of Power began to dwindle, and the blog turned into answers to questions.” ……………… “Now you yourself provide answers to the questions…”
The essence of Enmenkar’s blog is to learn to think
with your own head, analyze, compare,
and the blog also provides a foundation for those who have just embarked on the Path, those who are just starting,
those who walk the Path behind which there are many ups, downs, disappointments, and joys will find in the blog exactly what was lacking for overcoming the abyss and gaining Strength and Wisdom.
I have come to the conclusion that magic is primarily the exploration of One’s own consciousness. When you take a torch, descend into the depths, and do not know who or what will meet you around the corner. You carefully take a step, look around… Some black shadows scatter from the light… Here’s a crossroads.
Aha… there’s some white glow ahead. Let’s see what the light is… oof… it’s cold and unfamiliar. I’ll go further. It’s a bit scary, but I need to go on. No one will lead you by the hand.
And most importantly – to build your fortress there. My consciousness is My home.
It really resonated with me. Oh, how I understand… Sending you warmth!